Well I got through my tough week, dealt with my fears, pulled myself together, and tackled the problem like an intelligent person rather than emotionaly driven person. I spent a couple of days going over the details of my eating plan, seeing where I may have gotten a little lax, adding more vegetables and a little less starchy carbs, pumped up the intensity during my workouts, and voila' a 3 pound loss. That makes it 17 lbs. for the month. I'm pleased with myself and it shows I'm making progress. Each little bit forward helps me realize I can change my life for better.

I've also been hunkering down inside a little bit more, which for me usually means a lot of introspection. Since I'm bent to be that way, It can go a bit overboard really fast. I think about everything to the enth degree, until I find myself in a quagmire of confusion. I make goals for myself, and then worry I'm becoming too vain and self consumed. I've wanted to make improvements in my life because I believe that will help me make a more positive impact on the world around me, then I get concerned that I'm just being influenced by old insecurities that made me feel totally without value in this world. Ah, whats a girl to do?

This morning, after bible study, a old hymn popped into my head and has been with me all day. It's kind of funny how, even though I wasn't raised with these old hymns, and of course the language is kind of funny, and everyone now clamors for the new choruses, I find myself singing them to myself in sorrow and joy, faith and confusions. Today it was " How Firm a Foundation". It's got quite a few stanza's otherwise I'd post it. But it is such a rich description of how God has provided for our every need in his word and in his body and salvation. That nothing can happen to us, that he can't use for our benefit. That he will walk us through every season of our lives. It reminds me that I'm not just suppossed to let my mind run wild with thoughts and questions, but take them to him. He is such a wonderful, caring, and all sufficient God. Google that old hymn, and see if you are not enriched by the truths it offers.