Well, it's been a little harder this last week, hope wise that is. My weight has stayed the same all week, and I know that is going to happen, but it causes all the old fears and insecurities to pop up. Those feelings leave me feeling restless and unsettled and wanting something, anything to bring me some comfort, encouragement etc. And of course, you know where that usually leads, straight to the cookie jar. I have stayed the course, but within my mind and heart, feelings of failure are ever present, taunting me to "give up", and telling me "nothing will ever be different". As I write this, I know I need to take this to the Lord, believe him, lean on him, and ask him to fill my life with other thoughts and deeds to focus on while I'm on this journey. Just like when I exercise, I don't keep my eye on the LCD readout constantly watching my time. That makes it just seem longer and harder by the minute. Rather, I distract myself from the tediousness of the task and just keep going at it, and before you know it I'm done and feel better and succesfull. But I'm such an all in kind of person. The last few weeks, I've poured myself into learning this new way of eating, and it's taken alot of time and it was a little exhilarating. Now I need to put it that knowledge into practice, without obsessing on it all day. Because of course, it's just one part of being an all over better person. This is truly learning to live in a new way, and I need to accept, that there is a learning curve here, it doesn't all need to happen this week, but consistently doing the right thing, putting one foot in front of another, and staying on track, will in the end result in a better me. I hope, I hope, I hope, I hope......and I guess that isn't so bad.