I don't get to do it "MY WAY" and that's a good thing.

     I'm feeling so intruded upon by all the sickness and death that have been my constant companion these last six years or so. I feel bad for feeling that way, knowing how selfish it is. I want to say " I want my life back" and quickly realize how much of a lie and an illusion that idea really is. The truth is this "life" never truly belonged to me in the first place. It can be taken from me and or anyone else I know and love at any time. Then I realize what a terrible intrusion sin was in this world. God never wanted any of this for man, he created paradise, but we are the ones who had to "do it our way", and this is the mess we end up with. So we've got this ugly, unwanted, uninvited guest at our party and he is trying to ruin it.
     No this life doesn't truly belong to me, but the eternal one, given to me by God, through Jesus Christ,does belong to me, and Satan can't touch that. In the meantime, he is doing his best to spread his misery around and yet through Christ, we rise above. He destroys our plans, and we find new purpose. He saps our energy, and we draw closer to the one who gives all strength. He brings us grief and mourning, and Christ pours out a song in our hearts. He destroys and shakes the world we stand on, and we find a sure foundation in God. He makes rubble out of our illusions, and we find wisdom. He brings death to our door, and God uses it to create new life, and shine out his perfect glory. And on and on it goes.

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39